Tuesday, August 30


On the first day of raya, my mood for celebrating this holly ceremony is officially gone. It is because of my sister. i don't what the heck is happen towards her that morning. her face like so annoying making my parent mad. like super mad. after, i try to break that scene. i do something like fun, i don't know.it just blurp. how you feel when only one of you spoil the mood and the rest take the blame. what my mother know is what my sister thinks. And this morning proves that she only know one head thinking. my sister that is. It just sucks when after raya, the school begins. i don't even ask for money, i just ask for happiness. i don't give a damn if people give money or didn't. i just i could bet all the stuff that i had for now trade with my family happiness. I couldn't do such that stuff. yes, sometimes i woke up late. i'm sorry if today i wake up late. it doesn't mean my friends is my number one priority. it just make me feel that my parent forget who i was and what i am. what they know is my sister. ;(

Sunday, August 28


My favorite ;)

you were rough,
you were tough,
you were sweet,
you were nice, but; 
every nice thing people do,
there's a bad coming in your way. 
i just wanna say that,
every breath i take is second chance,
Thanks to God, 
i met you.
for the record,
I always yours.
every love, 
there's a pain, scars;
but, the beautiful about love is that you experience how to be love and how to loved someone better. 

Friday, August 19


sometimes when you feel like even though you just in a relationship for one month, you feels like 'ugh! sayang bena ku eh!' stuff like that is now how i feel towards him. i love him and my words sometimes crap. i don't know why or what the heck happening that evening. i just cried. hahaha. look, crying over past means that i flash back the time i was cheating behind you. and i know it's my mistake. i promise i won't do it again. but, i just scared. if, just if, only if . the moment i step out off the school property, then our relationship is over. i just scared that what goes around comes back around. for now, what i know is that i love you. i don't why or what you did to me. i really don't. it just, being with you is so much fun. like too much fun the feeling getting stronger and the negative thought gonna take over. whenever i think about it tear drops. i just don't know how to handle it the feeling getting much much stronger and problem step in. ugh! i know it's a stupid thing to think. it just, when i look your face the flash back step in. ugh! HAMSTER! perlu ka time tok. bongok x abis abis. bengong ba. jeez! --' i'm not ready to let you go yet. it just, not about the age. or maybe it is. malas mok pike gik. makin d pike, mok ngis. gik tgah tulis tok ndah asa nak nangis! haish. pelik pelik olah. humph! what past let it stay pass. i always say that but truthfully and honestly being w you is so much fun and the feeling  is getting too much strong. it just too much. i love being w you i love you. childish. ;(

Monday, August 8


i heard a lot from other student about the school. not just my school but every where school. i wrote this not to humiliate the teachers or the government. what i wrote is what i heard. from what i know, a student accidentally sleeping during her/his class. BUT, there's a but; there's others sleeping with a first warning. the teacher warned this student only once. how the teacher wake this student up? maybe the teacher hit the student head making this student migrain. hey, getting migrain is very serious, it effect the brain. let's go to the point. the teacher ask this particular student to met her/him at the wannabe P-R-I-N-C-I-P-A-L. so, the student went to the wannabe office. the teacher, as a educator they should be like more honest and not so picking when it comes to student with different races, right. so, the teacher made up story to the wannabe saying that she/he gave this student 3 times warning which is never in the student history. yea, the student got the first warning. only first. why only this particular student went to the office while there's others sleeping beside this student. the weirdest thing is, because of this student sleeping and the teacher made-up-story, the student gonna be expelled. first time in my history i heard if student sleeping in the class must be expelled from the school. i was like, RIGHT. they must be joking. but no. i'm sorry to say this but if there's no educator the student gonna be so stupid, right? but how, the student is already stupid mix with stupid teacher? WE MUST BE SO DUMB having such kind of educator. there's a song directly to teachers tell us to appreciate them. how we student thank some teacher that really don't respect us and how you want the student to learn if some teachers seems like to be racist. the government and the prime minister really want the next generation be intelligent and genius also giving the next generation a high hope. actually, the principal didn't act like some teachers acting the school is in their hand and they can easily made up rules. some teachers is very good and this particular teachers should be the one that student thanks for being such good educator. and the other, just the name. if scale 1-10 for the teachers in the school. i give 1. why? only a few teachers that really treat the student well. A FEW actually. not all. some teacher racist, some teacher just take the name, some teacher is so proud to be like an educator like so whatever. even though i'm only 17, i see the world through teachers actually. if i only lived with the teachers, some are spoil brat some just don't care about the student and only think about the payment they got. sometimes, some teachers is acting way more worst than the student can ever think of. the student bad-ass, people out there can see. but when it came about teachers, no one know and blame it on the students.